Back where I need to be.

I go through phases where I ... Let me rephrase that. God is always calling out to me. It is always on my heart that I NEED Him. I need the Word and fellowship, I need accountability and guidance, I need the grace of Jesus. I go through seasons, however, where I either listen or I allow life to drown it out and drive it to the back burner. And the latter times are unquestionably when things feel so much harder. Could it be that I am not capable of handling everything on my own? Could I, just maybe, need the help of a powerful and loving Creator? The past few weeks, I have felt that gaping hole in my life more and more. Though I'd heard about it here and there for a while and done nothing, this week I finally committed to take part in the She Reads Truth community. I'm hoping that the community with other like-minded women will hold me more accountable and true to my convictions and that I won't give up (or rather, as it often seems, drift off) as easily this time. I know where I place my priorities is no one's responsibility but my own, but why else did God build the church? I pray that I can get back to the person I am supposed to be and that that will sustain me and make me the wife and mother my family deserves. I want to have a strong, Christ-centered marriage and I want to raise up Jesus-lovin' children. It all starts now.